Storm in a Teacup

Yes, that the name of a Red Hot Chilli Peppers song...but it's how I've been feeling. Long story - lost paycheck, yadda yadda (catch up on Facebook)...but it's made me extremely anxious and freaking out.


They are sending me a back-up check that I should get on the 20th (Friday). Which means I can get back in my life.

I have been painting a lot. My "goth" painting turned out very pretty and quite silver and almost mirror like, which is very interesting. Once I finish I'll post.

I did a felted purse from a felted wool sweater - which is very cool and the opening is the v-neck of the sweater and the handle looks like a hood almost with kilt pins. I'll be taking pix and posting tomorrow. I need to figure out the best way to showcase it for sales.

Have you looked at my etsy site and bought something for the Holidays? Please do. www.artbydede@etsy.com .

Have a good day tomorrow.

Dede

Night Time Creations

I now fall asleep around 11-12 and wake about 3-3:30 and paint.   Don't know why i don't do more during the day, I'm tired.

GRACE....

Forgive my typing i only have one and a 1/4 hands.  /i passed out and fell.  ick.

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Tell Me how I am to breathe with no air?????

I was up writing and listening to my itunes.  I have my headphones on (even though  I live alone) so it can be loud and not disturb the neighbors.

When NO AIR came on.  I crumbled.  I felt like the emotions of everything from the last few months.  And thought about how much I miss the love of my life....my life.  I  miss what was my life, my family. I don't feel like I am living, I guess I'm just on hold....paused.  And my body is clearly breaking down.  I still have to go to the Uro/Gyn for Renal Scan and Nephrologist for cysts in and on my kidneys.

Good to cry.  Not moonlight crafting tonight.  Moonlight emoting.

A resting crafter...

I have canvases and boards to paint on all over the house....
I have a huge stash of yarn....
I have sweaters cut and ready to sew....
And yet my body is not cooperating.  I used to catch the muse @ bedtime, but lately I've been catching the Z's.... guess my body needs that to heal.  I have to remind myself you cannot push the river!

Moondark and not crafting

Yes, it's dark...middle of the night and I'm not crafting.  I got a few rude comments about my painting being "hippie art" and i've noticed that I have not painted anything since.  Who died and made  this Frank guy judge of the art world.  I guess he considers Buddha, cherry blossoms, trees, flowers to be Hippie - or maybe he never got past the name Craft Hippie.

I go to the hospital on thursday of this week to have the fluid in my stomach drained with a needle (using ultra-sound to see the pocket.)  If I painted what I feel it would be frenetic and abstract and dark.  I'm a very self-reliant person, but I just need someonen to take the reigns and take care of me...I'm kinda overwhelemed.

Self-Portrait

I have named this "doll" - Negative Pain.  I guess it's a self-portrait of how I feel right now about myself, my body and my pain.